About a Boy

This is my first post about a boy. Okay, I feels like talk shit. But, i have no place to escape. I dont know how to share my feeling about this guy, my best friend was so far far away from me. And I cant help myself to keep this story forever.

Okay, actually, I'm in love. Umm.... This guy always make me smile with his stupid joke, even I hate him soooo much. We aren't close enough. But, he always hijacked my phone with stupid broadcast until my father angry at me. One day, he hijacked my phone and he didn't want to return my phone back. And I have to begged at him. I have no patient that time, i want to reply all message on my phone, so, I took my phone on his pocket but, he didnt want to return it. I have to wait until 2 pm. And I caught him hijacked my twitter and my bbm. When I begged him for my phone, I saw his eyes, an gorgeous eyes. His beautiful smile, and his hand was soft like a silk. Okay, I act so over reacted -_- but this is the truth. never felt like this before.

Oh!! My other friend hijacked my twitter on 111111 and she said im in relationship with him. And I felt so guilty at him. I just scared if he didnt want to talk to me or have a joke with me and the worst is, me and him was like 1000000000000000000000000 miles away. She pissed me off. But, In the next day, me and him wasn't far away like1000000000000000000000000 ,miles. And today, all my classmates was made fun of me and him. OMG im so embarrassed. I just scared like yesterday. I  just scared if he didnt want to talk to me or make joke with me.

I feel so relieved. Finally I can escape from cyber jungle (twitter) and make blogger as my diary again. And he was different. He was brave to look my eyes when he talked to me, not like another guy. his eyes tell something that I could understand. But I know I will never be with him. Im not his type. He's still in love with his ex by the way.

Love, Najong.

Panic! effect

Maybe you guys think I'm acting sooo over reacted. But this is the way which I used to express. I'm happy. So excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I watched P!ATD concert for the first time and I won the meet and greet pass and I made a project. I made that because I promised to myself if i won the quiz, I'll make that project. And I won it!!!! Day by day, night by night passed. I could make it happened on 4 tiring days. *by the way, this is the letter project from all Indonesian Northern Downpour and I'm not owned all the words on the letters* 

20th September finally came. My heart keep beating so hard, loud, and fast on that day. And everything seems so easy to do. Luck by luck came to me on that week. started the day with studied physics and Japanese then go to my best bud's cribs and went to Gelora Bung Karno. Heading to West VIP Gate but there's no one there. There's some people from media. I didn't get any meet and greet pass just like my friend got, Audrey. 1,5 hours I stood in front of the gate. I'm getting mad with the ticket-checker-man. I didn't allow to get into the lobby just because their boss is sucks. Till there's a group of m&g gurl yelled at the ticket-checker-man. So, we all allowed to get into the lobby. 

I saw all the winners. But I didn't saw any Yellowcard's m&g winners. We sat on the floor wait for Panic! At The Disco. I don't care if all people is wearing make up. I just wanna see P!ATD in person........ And this is it. We walked to a ballroom there's some chairs and a pers conference table. The rules was sick. "No hugs. No questions. No candid camera." WHAT THE HECK!!!!!! JUST SHAKING HAND ITS NOT ENOUGH!!! We made a line and queue up for waiting all members sign. When P!ATD walked into the room, the atmosphere was soooooo  insane!!!!!!!! Suddenly all of us scream aloud. We cant resist to saw their hotness, oh God.............This is my turn to asked their sign. I only can said "hey, I got something for ya" with awkward face on and my hands started its earthquake. Ian was so excited to took my gift. Dallon was so cool. Spencer is soooo funny. He told me a joke but I forgot what did he said to me. And now, ITS BRENDON BOYD URIE!!!!! I got 2 paper bag on my hands. One is the project and the other one is the gift for him. My hands is shaking. Its suffocating br00, Goshh. I got short convo with him "hey Brendon, I got something for ya :)" "thank you!!! :)" "and congratulation about your engagement with Sarah" "............ Thank you!!!!!!!! You're so sweet:)" this lil conversation made me crazy. I regret with what I said to him. Why Im so stupid for congratulate his engagement. Dammit!! And when the photo session begin, Brendon said something about my t-shirt "awww Hellogoodbye, nice :)" Im about to die when he said that words xD here's the picture of me and panic at the disco. ENVY ME GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHHA

The meet and greet is over. We walked out and I forgot something to said, THE PROJECT!!!!!!!! I FORGOT THE PROJECT!!! I FORGOT TO SHOWED THE PROJECT TO BRENDON!!!!!!!!! STUPID ME!!!! I was so hopeless. All bad thoughts about P!ATD didnt read my project and throw those things to the river. omg those stupid thoughts keep spinning around in my heads. 

The concert was wild. Brendon is so hot when he killed the stage with his hotness and awesomeness. Dallon was sexy. Spencer was............. IDK I didnt saw him clearly lol, Ian is cute!! I love the way Brendon slapped Ian and Dallon's butt. He make us so dirty. The show was so incomplete without New Perspective, Northern Downpour, That Greengentleman, Mad as Rabbits, Pas de Cheval, and Time To Dance. I really LOVE the show. I met some of ND which i know them from twitter. And they was so nice to me :3 but, some of Bad Religion's fans pissed us off. I dont care with them.

Post concert depression. I need more P!ATD concert in my life. They've changed my life jurassicly. They are my obsession. They are my spirit, my life, love and drugs. 

21st September. This day was sooo sleepy. I feel like sleeping all day. There's no shit happened on that day. I usually get shit everyday. School was boring. I need more PANIC! AT THE DISCO. I slept so early. And I didn't notice if my blackberry rang and vibrated. 

22nd September. I woke up with im-not-interested-with-school-face.jpg do all my morning routines. Prepared all the books and checked all last night bbm. I saw my best buds bbm me with "GOOD MORNING" she never wake up so early and said Good Morning is not her type. I read her message and he PING!!!-ed me so much. She sent me a picture. But stupid me I cant see the picture clearly. Finally there's another clear one picture. I saw it and suddenly I scream aloud till all my family members came to my room and the thought I was dead. Do you know what picture that i was talkin about? I bet you dont. THAT WAS PANIC! AT THE DISCO AND MY PROJECT!!!!!! THEY DID THE STUPID AND POISONOUS  POSE!!!! HAHAHAHA they read my letter project!!!! I thought they were burn the box before they saw and read the project . I borrowed my sista's laptop to saw the picture on tumblr. AND..................... I WAS SCREAM ALOUD (AGAIN) IN MY CLASS WHEN ALL MY FRIEND DID IMTAQ. They saw me with their scary eyes. but, I dont care hahaha. This Is the picture of Panic an the project 

I dont know what should I said. BIG THANKS TO: All Indonesian Northern Downpour who joined this project (P!PROJECT) if no one joined this project, I might die and Panic! at The Disco will not read your feeling to them in direct ways :p. Ans THANK YOU to whoever who posted this exclusive picture on Tumblr. THANK YOU TO ARNANDA FIRDA FOR TOLD ME ABOUT THIS PICTURE. If she didn't tell me about this, I might dont know if this picture was exist. FOREVER. And THANK YOU TO PANIC! AT THE DISCO FOR BEING SO AWESOME AND WONDERFUL. Thank you for being such an inspiration. You're my obsession. You've changed my live so beautifully bright. 

2011 IS MINE!!! I LET NO ONE TO RUIN MY YEAR

"MAYBE ITS NOT MY WEEKEND, BUT ITS GONNA BE MY YEAR" -ALL TIME LOW 

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU